Chapter 184 – Sri Vinaya Patrika – Bhramanandham
– Athmaswaroopa Paramathma - Paramarththa Thaththva
Sri Tulsidas Maharaj speaks “Oh! Prabho,
this Moodamathi has fooled me for a long time, put me in extreme grief of
Samsara, my mind, and intellect wedged on the infinite Nama Roopa Dhrishya of
Samsara, and hurled me into different Yonis, taken several births experiencing
the Thribidha Thapa of Samsara, hence I have driven afar from the
Bhramanandha/Athmaswaroopa Parmathma/ Sacchidhanandhaghana, Sath, Chithth,
Anandhaswaroopa Paramathma is imperturbable and sweet like nectar. I have
been into various Sadhanas equivalent to water, leaving the pure ghee of
Paramanandha resides in my heart, in this way, I have drawn towards the dirt of
Karma, eventually I got myself impure engaged in various Karma with the selfish
motive and endless desires to fulfill. I have been chasing after material
welfare, possession, richness, money, fame, wealth, attachment to wife,
children, relatives, and companions, with the expectation that these would
provide happiness and bodily pleasure, unfortunately wandering thirsty leaving the
crystal-clear waters of Ganga and looking at the sky for raindrops of
unpredictable and fleeting nature. Oh! Prabho, you are the knower of all, you
are the sole witness in the Jeeva, but I haven’t hide any of my secrets or
impurities from you, kindly shower your compassionate grace upon Tulsi. Oh!
Prabho, I have been awake all night, did not experience peaceful sleep, I have
been wandering in search for the serenity of mind, to get rid of redundant
thoughts, impurities of Kama, Krodha, Lobha, Moha, Madha, Mathshcharya,
Ahamkara and Mamakara, I did not achieve Paramarththa Thaththva/knowledge of
self/Athman, or Jeevathma is Paramathma,
or oneness-in- all or Paramathma is indestructible Purusha and Prakrithi is
destructible, or Paramathma is pure, unblemished, eternal bliss, free from
afflictions and it has neither birth nor death, or all the material matters has
to undergo the constant transformation of aging, illnesses, and death, hence it has
impermanent nature. Oh! Prabho kindly protects me.”
245) Mohi Mooda Man Bahuth Bigoyo |Thake
Liye Sunahu Karunamaya Mei Jaga Janami
Janami Dhukha Royo || Seethala Madhur Peeyusha Sahaja Sukha Nikata Hi Rahath
Dhoori Jan Khoyo | Bahu Bhanthin Sthrama Karath Mohabas Bridhahi Mandhamathi Bari Biloyo || Karamakeech Jiya Jani Sani Chith Chahath Kutila Malahi Mal Dhoyo |
Thrishavanth Surasari Bihaya Sat Phiriphiri Bikala Akasa Nichoyo || Tulasidas
Prabhu! Kripa Karahu Ab Mei Nija Dhosha Kacchu Nahi Goyo | Dasath Hi Gayi Beethi Nisa Sab Kabahu Na
Nath! Neendh Bari Soyo ||