Chapter 183 – Sri Vinaya Patrika – Jeevathma
is Paramathma – Bhagavan Namaroopi Mahaphal - Paramathma is Kalpavruksha and the Samsara is a toxic and thorny berry
Sri Tulsidas Maharaj speaks “Oh! Hare, I
have abandoned to look into my heart which is the dwelling place of
Sacchidhanandha Swaroopa Paramathma Parambhramam, and got attracted towards the
material matters, people, and infinite Nama Roopa Dhrishya. I have been
wandering in search of material welfare and bodily pleasure leaving the
Paramathma resides in my heart is the knower of all, it is the sole source of
functioning of the mind, intellect, Ahamkara, Chithth, Karma, Gnanendhriyas, etc. like a female Harin/deer in search of the
highly fragrant Kasthuri in the mountain peaks, caves, dense wood, etc. without
the knowledge that its body holds the richness of Kasthuri. Oh! Prabho, the
Sukhaswaroopa Swami resides in my heart was abandoned and rushed after the
material welfare and people that could provide momentary happiness, like
leaving the pool of crystal-clear water to quench the thirst and rushed after
the reflection of water. The heart is the dwelling place of crystal-clear
Sarovar of Sacchidhanandhaswaroopa Paramathma, sadly I was rushed after the
Mrigathrishnaroopi Samsara due to ignorance, as a result, I am suffering from
the excruciating Thribidha Thapa/grief and sufferings of Samsara. Oh! Prabho, I
am worn out of Adhyathmik/aging, illness, fear, and anxiousness of death, on top
of that, I have not practiced Shamadhamadhi, Sathyam, Dhaya, Dhanam, Shaucham,
Thithiksha, Dhrithi, Kshama, Swadhyaya, Athmavichara, Bhramacharya, Arjjavam,
etc. Oh! Prabho, I have been ignorant in all my life, I have unnoticed the Bhagavan
Namaroopi Mahaphal resides in my heart/Athma, I have reluctant to take shelter
in the shade of Kalpavruksharoopi Paramathma, and rushed after the poisonous
thorny berry of Samsara, which could not provide happiness other than grief.
Oh! Prabho, the Veda, and scriptures praises that you are eminent in all the
Shastras and ocean of Gnana Vijjana, I am dull-minded Jeeva. Oh! Prabho, kindly
take a note of ignorance of mine, and do whatever feels apt for Tulsi.”
244) Yahi The Mei Hari Gyan Gavayo |
Parihari Hridhayakamala Raghunath Hi Bahar Phirath Bikal Bhayo Dhayo || Jyo
Kuranga Nija Anga Ruchira Madha Athi Mathiheen Marama Nahi Payo | Khojath Giri
Tharu Latha Bhoomi Bila Parama Sugandha
Kaham The Aayo || Jyo Sar Bimala Bari Paripooran Ooopar Kacchu Sivar Thrina
Cchayo | Jarath Hiyo Thahi Thaji Hai Sat Chahath Yahi Bidhi Thrisha Bujjayo ||
Byapath Thribidha Thapa Thanu Dharuna Thapar Dhusaha Dharidhra Sathayo |
Apanehi Dhama Nama Suratharu Thaji Bishaya Babur Baga Man Layo || Thuma Sama
Gyana Nidhan Mohi Sama Mooda Na Aan
Puranani Gayo | Tulasidas Prabhu! Yaha Bichari
Jiya Keejai Nath Uchitha Man
Bhayo ||