Chapter
– 125- Sur -Vinaya – Pathrika – The absolute
Truth/all the material matters/Prakrithi is destructible, and the soul is indestructible Purusha/supreme
Lord
Sri Surdas Maharaj speaks “Oh! Prabho, I
was completely drenched in ignorance and arrogance, hence I have lost pure
wisdom, the knowledge of self/ the Sacchidhanandha Swaroopa Paramathma
Paramambhramam resides as a soul in the Jeeva, is all-pervasive indestructible Purusha,
and all the material matters/Prakrithi is destructible. Oh! Prabho, I was chasing after material and
physical pleasure and my increased interest in worldly matters caused me to lose
the precious gem Hari Bhakti, the devotion, and singing in praise of Lord Sri
Hari. I have been wandering aimlessly to please my senses, like the deer chases
the illusion of water in the desert/Mrigathrishna to quench its thirst, alas!
after a long a chase it would realize that there is no water source, and die of
thirst. Oh! Prabho, due to ignorance, I have attached to the worldly matters of
possession, wealth, money, richness, fame, children, wife, companion,
relatives, etc. that has fleeting nature. Oh! Prabho, I have taken several
births in different Yonis/wombs of birds, animals, humans, etc. and performed
various Karma/duties and responsibilities, in this way, I have shackled myself
in various duties, thus I have been completely restrained by the Karma, like the
parrot that takes a nip of tasteless Semar fruit, later struggle to get rid of
the sticky substance from its beak. In this way, I have shackled myself to the
tasteless and meaningless worldly matters/Samsara, with the hope to achieve
perpetual bliss, unfortunately, I did not achieve serenity of mind or happiness
in the worldly existence, and all my chase for the material and physical
pleasure of day and night turned out worthless, brought constant grief and
sufferings. Oh! Prabho, my chase for material and physical pleasures resulted
in extreme disappointment, hence I did not find interest, taste, or happiness
in whatever I have been chasing for a long time, finally, I have understood all
my efforts to achieve the material and physical pleasures are in vain, all that
I have experienced is utter desolation and grief. Oh! Prabho, I have understood there is no
difference between myself and the monkey in the hands of a magician, who spill
grains to feed them and make them dance to his tune, in the same manner, I was
shackled with the chain of lust and desire to appease my sense, hence I had to
take several births in different Yonis of birds, animals, reptiles, humans, etc.
Oh! Prabho, I did not practice devotion, or sing in praise of supreme Lord Sri
Hari, or listen or reciting the glorious legends of the supreme Lord,
therefore I have pushed myself into the mouth of serpent-like the painful death.”
Dhokhau HI Dhokhau Dahakayau | Samujji
Na Pari Bishayarasa Geedhyau Hari Heera
Ghar Manjj Gavayau || Jyau Kuranga Jala
Dhekhi Avani Kau Pyasa Na Gayi Chahu
Dhisi Ghayau | Janama Janama Bahu Karama Kiye Hai Thinme Apun Aapu Badhayau ||
Jyau Suka Semar Seva Aasa Lagi Nisi
Basara Hadi Chithth Lagayau | Reethau Paryau Jabai Phal Chakhyau Udi Gayau
Thoola Thavarau Aayau || Jyau Kapi Dori Bandhi BajigarKan Kan Kau Chauhatau
Nachayau | Surdasa Bhagavanth Bhajana Binu Kalabyala Pai Aapu Dasayau ||
