Chapter -49 -Sri Vinaya Patrika - The benefits of Sharanagathi
Sri Tulsidas Maharaj speaks “Alas! I did
not make any effort to make my life fruitful, and spent most of the lifetime unproductive,
even after achieving the extremely rare birth as a human, I did not utilize my
mind and intellect, word, or deeds or body to worship or eulogize the glories
of Lord Sri Ramachandra. The childhood days were spent in various amusements,
the Chanchalatharoopi Chithth immersed in playful activities, the youthful days
were spent in amorous sport, the Kamaroopi Jwara did not leave for a second, the mind was always yearning to have bodily pleasure with the woman, the middle age
has been spent in earning wealth by various means of trade, Alas! while these
days I did not get peace not even in the sleep, because of keeping away myself from
the worship and meditation on Lord Sri Ramachandra, I was burning in the blaze
of Thrividha Thapa day and night. The attachment to the impermanent wealth,
possession, richness, money, fame, family, children, wife, relatives,
companions etc. shoved me into constant miseries and sorrows in their absence.
The pride of clan, body, and the possession of material matters that has
fleeting nature pushed me to immense grief in the occurrence of the disaster,
natural calamities, accidents, death, etc., pride in the body, and attachment to
people were continuously thrashed by aging, illnesses, and finally the death. I have
not been in the association of devotees of Lord Sri Ramachandra, or in the
association of Santhvrindh, Bhakthavrindh, Mahatmas, or I did not do any selfless
service to the devotees of the Lord, I did not listen to the glorious myths of
Lord Sri Ramachandra or I did not speak about the legends of Lord Rama with
devotion and tears on eyes. Now, I have reached the latter years of age, none
of my limbs are co-operating with me, I am distressed and in extreme anguish,
like the serpent lost its precious gem. I am helpless, no one to save me from
the Thrividha Thapa, grief and sufferings of worldly existence. The youthful and
middle ages were spent on accumulating Papakarma/sinful deeds, hence the
welfare in the Ihaloka/life on the Earth and Paraloka/life after death, the
both were ruined. The attachment to worldly matters and bondage compelled to commit
various sins, none of those relations/people are available and are feeling shy
to stand with me. Oh! Tulsi, you meditate and contemplate upon that supreme
Lord Sri Raghunath, and call for help at least once, he is too quick to respond
to the cries of his devotees, he is too compassionate to even the
Gajaraj/Gajendra Moksha/elephant who cried out for the help from the mouth of death (like
worldly existence) when he was caught on the leg by the crocodile.”
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Kacchu Hyai Na Ayi Gayo Janama Jaya | Athi Dhurllabha Thanu Payi Kapata
Thaji Bhaje Na Rama Mana Bachana Kaya || Larikayi Beethi Acheth Chith
Chanchalatha Chaugune Chaya | Joban Jur
Jubathi Kupaththkari Bhayo Thridhosha Bhari Madhan Baya || Madhya Bayas Dhana Hethu Gavayi Krishi Banija Nana
Upaya | Rama Bimukha Sukha Lahyo Na
Sapnehu Nisibasara Thayau Thihu Thaya || Seye Nahim Seethapathi Sevak
Sadhu Sumathi Bhali Bhagathi Bhaya | Sune
Na Pulaki Thanu Kahe Na Mudhitha
Man Kiye Je Charitha Raghubasaraya || Ab Sochath Mani
Binu Bhuanga Jyo Bikala Anga Dhale Jara Gaya | Sira Dhuni Dhuni Pacchithath
Meemji Kar Koau Na Meeth Hith Dhusaha Dhaya || Jinha Lagi Nija Paraloka Bigaryo
The Lajath Hoth Dande Daya |Tulasi Ajahu Sumiri Raghunathahi Tharyo Gayadh Jake
Yek Naya ||
