Chapter - 79 -Sri Vinaya Patrika - Garbhavasadhi
Dhukham
Sri Tulsidas Maharaj speaks “Oh! Jeeva, you
have repented for the mistakes in the past lives while you were in the womb of
your mother, felt miserable for not utilizing the previous births for any pious
deeds/Krama to get freed from the Samsara Chakra and Garbhavasa. Oh! Jeeva, you
have taken a vow not to get trapped in the Samsara again, promised to contemplate
and meditate upon the Lord Chakradhari who is the Lord of time, capable to cut
off the vicious cycles of repeated births. You have pacified yourself with the
promise that not to get attached to Samsara, and continued to live
in the womb facing the hellish tortures. Oh! Jeeva, you have suffered a lot of
agonies and pain in the darkness of the mother’s womb, finally, you have pushed
out of the womb by the force of air/Prachandavayu upside down on the Earth. Immediately
after the birth, you have forgotten all those Bhakthi, Dhyana, Gnana, and the promises
you have made while in the womb of your mother. Oh! Jeeva, no one has seen the troubles you
have gone through in the darkness, humid, tiny space in your mother's womb, lying
upside down in the Mal/secrete, Moothra/urine, and Krimi/worms. The people surrounded by you were extremely
happy to see the newborn, and were singing and dancing around you in joy.”
Sri Tulsidas Maharaj continues “Oh! Jeeva,
you have suffered a lot of troubles while in your mother’s womb, which was
countless. Alas! even after the birth, the helpless infant goes through hunger,
illness, and various troubles/bitten by mosquitos, ants, etc., no one could understand
why you are weeping for? even your mother does not know what’s bothering you,
she tries various tricks to calm the infant, unfortunately, it would multiply
your troubles. Sometimes, the infant cries
of indigestion, but the mother misunderstands it as hunger and feeds you, again
and again, that would add to your sufferings. During childhood/Kishoravastha you
have made a lot of sins knowingly or unknowingly, that are indescribable. Oh!
Ignorant, Oh! Heartless, you have committed a lot of mistakes in the childhood
days as well.”
136 - 5)Puni Bahubidhi Galani Jiya Mani | Ab Jaga Jayi Bhajau Chakrapani ||
Yesehi Kari Bichar Chup Sadhi | Prasava Pavana Prerau Aparadhi || Preryo Jo Parama Prachand Maruth Kashta Nana Thai Sahyo | So Gayan Dhyan Biraga Anubhav
Jathana Pavak Dhayo || Athi Khedh Byakul
Alapa Bal Cchin Yek Boli Na Aavayi | Thava Theebra Kashta Na Jan Koau Sab Loga Harashith
Gavayi ||
6) Bala Dhasa Jethe Dhukha Paye | Athi Aseema Nahim Jahim Ganaye || Chudhdha Byadhi
Badha Bhayi Bhari | Bedhan Nahim Janai
Mahathari || Janani Na Janai Peer So
Kehi Hethu Sisu Rodhana Karai |
Soyi Karai Bibidha Upaya Jathe Adhika
Thuva Cchathi Jarai || Kaumara Saisava Aru Kisora Apara Adha Ko Kahi
Sakai | Byathireka Thohi Niradhaya!
Mahakhala! Aan Kahu Ko Sahi Sakai ||
